Misplaced Emotions

When you talk about mental health, or you tell someone that you are going to see a therapist, what do you think they will say? Arey!, but you are not crazy…? The world right now is in between a mental health crisis. Almost half the population suffers from depression at some point or the other in their lives. Do you know which age group has the most number of depressed people? It’s the teens. Since the childhood, the kids are expected to reach the epitome of success in their lives. They have to face so much pressure, that they eventually succumb to this pressure. This leads to various mental illnesses like depression, inferiority complex and so on. And what happens when you talk to your parents or anyone else the about it? They say ‘I’ve also been through this stage. It is nothing.’. The truth is that they have not been through this stage and it is not nothing. Today we have so much competition and additional pressure to succeed. It is bound to drive people crazy.  In scho...

We used to talk for hours. Now we just wave at each other. They were like my family. Now, I don't know what we are anymore. I care about them. I would have done anything for for some of them. Now, its like I don't know them anymore. How can friendship between people break like this? I always blamed them for not trying. But I don't know if that's true anymore. I think it is not them. I think its me. I think that no matter how good it is, I just want it to fail. When I approach this new chapter in my life, I feel that I am cutting old ties, just to keep me from getting hurt. Is this wrong? It sure feels like it. I try to fix it but sometimes when a thread breaks, it is next to impossible to join it back together without any knots. And that's how my life is right now. Full of knots. No matter what i do, it seems to be the wrong choice. And with each wrong choice, another string weakens, which would break eventually. What should i do? Help!.... Anyone?  ~A.F~

"Your next question is for ONE MILLION DOLLARS! Are you ready?" "Ye..Yes" The crowd hasn't stopped cheering. I was anxious. Scared. But I wanted the next question so badly and I hoped..I hoped.. that I would be able to answer it. Her life depended on it. "Haha! I know you're ready. But you are going to have to wait.", said Jack. He turns to the camera. "We will come back after a short commercial. Don't go anywhere because if you do...You just might miss history in the making.", he said that with the broadest smile that I had ever seen. He looks at me. Clearly he saw that I was tensed. I was sweating like a guy who was high and paranoid. There was sweat in my eye and god knows where else. He tried to talk to me. Probably tried to make me feel comfortable. My head nodded involuntarily to whatever he was saying. I wasn't listen to anything he was saying. I couldn't. I was worried. Worried for her. Her life depended on me...

In a world full of sorrows, your smile is the only thing that lights me up!   My mind is filled with memories, but the ones with you are my favourite ones!  You gave me chills when you were around me!  Why stay away when we were perfect together?!   Why did you force yourself to be away from a person you love? Be a part of my life. Be my paradise and let me be yours.  You smile, I smile. You cry, I cry. You fight, I fight. You die, I die. Whatever it is, lets do it together.. ~V.S~

Look out the window on a beautiful Sunday morning. What do you see? Walk through the freshly cut grass. How do you feel? The smell of grass, the sound of birds, the cool breeze passing through your hair. There are no words to describe this. Nature is the best healer. Or so they say. I used to feel happy. Now i don't feel anything anymore. I might smile just to show the world that I'm still alive. But inside..inside..nothing. The things that make me happy, don't anymore. Is this what depression feels like? People laugh when you talk about being depressed. It's a phase, they say. But trust me. It is not. It will not pass on that easily. I know. If you feel alone, just remember, there are people in your lives who care about you. If you don't want to talk to them, then come to me. I will listen to you. I will try to make you feel better. I promise. ~A.F~

On and on and on, I'm breathing. Breathing but not living. Day in and day out, I roam in the emptiness that is my conscience. Waiting. Just waiting, for someone to fill it. It took 2 years, 3 months and 17 days for me to find that 'someone'. But hey!, who's counting? When i first saw her i knew. I knew that she was going to be trouble. I tried to distance myself from her because I knew how HOPELESSLY i was gonna fall in love with her. But that didn't work. Reason? One day we made eye contact. And then... Then she smiled. Oh! That smile. That damned smile. That smile was the reason for my existence. I used to wake up everyday just hoping to see that smile. I wanted to tell her. Tell her how I feel. But i just couldn't. I knew i couldn't keep her happy. When she was with someone else, I felt horrible. But it was better than her being with me. This way i could watch her smile. Or at least that's what i'd tell my heart on sleepless nights. Thi...