Misplaced Emotions

"Your next question is for ONE MILLION DOLLARS! Are you ready?" "Ye..Yes" The crowd hasn't stopped cheering. I was anxious. Scared. But I wanted the next question so badly and I hoped..I hoped.. that I would be able to answer it. Her life depended on it. "Haha! I know you're ready. But you are going to have to wait.", said Jack. He turns to the camera. "We will come back after a short commercial. Don't go anywhere because if you do...You just might miss history in the making.", he said that with the broadest smile that I had ever seen. He looks at me. Clearly he saw that I was tensed. I was sweating like a guy who was high and paranoid. There was sweat in my eye and god knows where else. He tried to talk to me. Probably tried to make me feel comfortable. My head nodded involuntarily to whatever he was saying. I wasn't listen to anything he was saying. I couldn't. I was worried. Worried for her. Her life depended on me...

In a world full of sorrows, your smile is the only thing that lights me up!   My mind is filled with memories, but the ones with you are my favourite ones!  You gave me chills when you were around me!  Why stay away when we were perfect together?!   Why did you force yourself to be away from a person you love? Be a part of my life. Be my paradise and let me be yours.  You smile, I smile. You cry, I cry. You fight, I fight. You die, I die. Whatever it is, lets do it together.. ~V.S~

Look out the window on a beautiful Sunday morning. What do you see? Walk through the freshly cut grass. How do you feel? The smell of grass, the sound of birds, the cool breeze passing through your hair. There are no words to describe this. Nature is the best healer. Or so they say. I used to feel happy. Now i don't feel anything anymore. I might smile just to show the world that I'm still alive. But inside..inside..nothing. The things that make me happy, don't anymore. Is this what depression feels like? People laugh when you talk about being depressed. It's a phase, they say. But trust me. It is not. It will not pass on that easily. I know. If you feel alone, just remember, there are people in your lives who care about you. If you don't want to talk to them, then come to me. I will listen to you. I will try to make you feel better. I promise. ~A.F~

On and on and on, I'm breathing. Breathing but not living. Day in and day out, I roam in the emptiness that is my conscience. Waiting. Just waiting, for someone to fill it. It took 2 years, 3 months and 17 days for me to find that 'someone'. But hey!, who's counting? When i first saw her i knew. I knew that she was going to be trouble. I tried to distance myself from her because I knew how HOPELESSLY i was gonna fall in love with her. But that didn't work. Reason? One day we made eye contact. And then... Then she smiled. Oh! That smile. That damned smile. That smile was the reason for my existence. I used to wake up everyday just hoping to see that smile. I wanted to tell her. Tell her how I feel. But i just couldn't. I knew i couldn't keep her happy. When she was with someone else, I felt horrible. But it was better than her being with me. This way i could watch her smile. Or at least that's what i'd tell my heart on sleepless nights. Thi...

When i'm sad. Why does your thought bring a smile on my face? There are so many catchy tunes in the world. Then why is your voice stuck like a melody in my mind? There are so many people around me. Then why is it that i always look forward for your approval? In this depressing world? Why is it that only your face cheers me up? Why is it that you are the reason that i wake up each day and you are the reason why i sleep peacefully at night? I have been looking for the answers for quite some time. Is this love? When i see you, my heart beats ten times as fast and probably skips a beat or two. Is this love? When i see you with someone else, i feel crushed. Is this love? I try so hard just to make you smile. When that moment does finally arrive, i forget everything and smile with you. Is this love? I just wished you knew how i felt. I want to tell you every time i see you. But i fear i will lose you forever. Is this love? ~A.F~